Between Self-Discovery & Overthinking

Hi Guys, What’s Up?

Hope you all are doing fine and healthy.

Lately, I’ve been feeling like life is just moving forward, and I’m simply going with it. I don’t really know what I’m doing—I guess I’m in the process of discovering myself. One thing I’ve realized about myself is that I cut off relationships easily, whether it’s friends or others.

Why do I do this? If I feel like someone doesn’t value me or genuinely want me in their life, I step away. I used to have two friends in college, but now I’ve cut ties with them too. These days, I roam alone, eat alone, go to class alone.

To be honest, it feels both good and bad.

The good part? I’ve grown stronger—I don’t feel dependent on anyone.
The bad part? It makes me question myself: Am I bad at forming connections? Is something wrong with me? I still don’t have the answers. But one thing I do know is that I can’t force relationships. Maybe it’s ego, or maybe it’s self-respect telling me: You don’t need someone who doesn’t respect you.

To be real with you, being alone isn’t always a bad thing. Right now, one quote is stuck in my mind:

"If you’re going through hell, keep going." — Winston Churchill

I know some might think I’m overreacting. Some might wonder, if it doesn’t affect me, why am I even writing this? Truth is, this is how I express myself. I don’t know if anyone will read this, but if you are, just know—I have a lot of mood swings, and I overthink even small things.

One thing I’ve observed is that if you stay alone or sad for too long, you reach a state where everything feels “okay.” But in reality, it’s not. Life is meant to have ups and downs—moments of happiness and sadness. However, solitude does give you something valuable: a deeper understanding of yourself. And as humans, isn’t that something we should all seek?

---

Moving On…

Lately, I’ve been reading a bit. Right now, I’m on Sophie’s World by Jostein Gaarder. I’ve finished Chapter-1, and honestly, I’m really liking it!

Apart from that, life is moving forward.

Another thought that’s been on my mind lately—the existence of God.

I know it’s a highly debatable topic, but this is just my perspective. Everyone has the right to think, to question, and to explore things they don’t fully understand—whether it’s faith, beliefs, or life itself.

There’s so much happening in this world, and when I think deeply about it all, I keep coming back to this question: Does God really exist?

Religion brings guidance and goodness, no doubt. But every religion also has its complexities and contradictions. I’m not here to argue with anyone. If you don’t agree with me, that’s completely fine. Just don’t spread hate.

---

Final Thoughts

This was just me sharing what’s on my mind. No filters, no edits—just raw thoughts. If you made it this far, thanks for reading. Life is weird sometimes, but I guess we all figure it out in our own way.

Till next time.